For My Friends, Supporters and Everyone In Between
My mind is still racing a mile a minute, so this is only a portion of my thought track as I’m sitting here writing.
First, I’m taken aback by the way some bureaucrats are steeping in false confidence and gloating as if the endorsement of less than 10% of the adult population in a jurisdiction is some form of mandate or overwhelming support.
Satterlee later responded to clarify what he meant. Read the rest of the exchange
I’m Glad You Didn’t Get It
That’s what one bureaucrat with an appointed (gifted) seat had to say about the electoral chapter of my struggle for a better city. What Mr. Satterlee fails to register is that I’ve been on the job; I’ve been an active participant at city council meetings – without pay or external compulsion – for nearly a decade now.
Check the minutes. It’s on record. My dedication and consistency with regard to tackling public policy cannot be questioned. My philosophical belief is that one does not have to enmesh his entire stream of action and thought within the system itself – to be subsumed as a bureaucrat – to effect change; thus my rejection of the job and title of councilman with all its constraints and contradictions.
My history and knowledge of public affairs as it pertains to city council dwarfs Mr. Satterlee’s on any day. If you’ve ever attended a meeting and witnessed our ‘deliberations’, you’ll determine the same with no equivocation.
As mentioned in the included tweet which councilman Satterlee opportunistically seized upon, I sought validation of my ideas and pursuit of reform as a worthwhile public function and endeavor.
I wasn’t selling or offering me for endorsement; I was putting my ideas up for a public test.
Isn’t that what a candidate should be? To me, it is. Beyond party labels, likeability and statutory obstacles to the ballot box – it is ideas that should take prominence. People and personalities are fleeting and finite; same with laws. Ideas are infectious and infinite. I proffered my ideas, not my person. I know what matters to me, and I sought to match it as one with the will of the people on the public square through the electoral vote. Plain and simple.
The Beauty of the Public Process
I can point out all the ugly things I saw and the shameful state of affairs that mar the public process – but that’s always there and apparent.
I’d rather tell you how honored and humbled I felt to be a part of this city’s desire to attain progress and redemption. The smiles, hugs and dialogue that mark election day work at the polls itself is worth the pursuit of justice and accountability. I met and connected with many unbelievable people throughout the process and the experience is life changing. I sincerely thank everyone who helped guide and support me throughout this year – you’ve literally helped me grow and find refinement as a neighbor and member of the community.
The Next Chapter
I don’t know what I’ll be doing going forward as far as public advocacy is concerned. The truth is struggling for reform and accountability in York is growing increasingly hostile by default. I don’t like the conflict and animus that underscores much of what should be vanilla – or just plain talk – dialogue amongst members of the community. Where discussing an item at heavily controlled and imbalanced council meetings requires one to be necessarily rambunctious and attention-seeking in order to be noticed – I’d rather be soft spoken and humble.
What many who only see me from a distance and through media blurbs and sound bites don’t know is – I don’t like conflict or attention. Particularly the adulation that comes from being seen as a leader. I fight passionately first and foremost because it’s in my self-interest and the interest of my future progeny. I want the satisfaction of moving from spectator to participant by letting my ideas take flight the best way I know how.
That’s why I’ve been vocal, that’s why I always have been and remain committed. That’s also why I didn’t want the job, because the sum and makeup of what I do and why I do it cannot be defined or quantified by a term in office – any office. I remain free to continue setting my ideas loose on the public square for rejection or validation, without the constraints and buffers that come with the conformity of being in office. I still have several projects I’m working on and I intend to see them through to fruition.
For me it’s all about timing. I don’t think any of the players involved are so good or so bad; we’re all just casualties of a complicated set of circumstances, whether positive or negative. I know I’m just part of a continuum, a time line in history, and I did my best to help define it.
So please don’t expect anything from me, I gave it my best shot and I’ve always been driven by spontaneity. It was an honor to run alongside the other York LP candidates and I’m lucky to have been able to experience this chapter in my life with all of you.
It’s All a Process
Last but not least, if my youthful vigor and recklessness ever caused me to impress upon anyone a negative thought or feeling throughout this campaign, you have my sincere apologies. I assure you any negativity on my part was not driven by malice as much as it was by lack of wisdom. To everyone who helped me grow – I salute you.
I got much more out of this than what a vote tally can ever indicate.